After midterm exam

My midterm exam is totally destroyed by myself!!!!!!!!!!!
It was a first tragedy that I encountered in my college life. I know that It will not be the last one.
Maybe I need to change my mind on my academic performance, however, I still have the lazy attitude toward them. After talking with my homeroom teacher, I know that there are no other choice I can choose except for working hard.
There are still a lot of miserable things occurred these days. Sometimes I lose my goal, and I don't know what I certainly my goal is. It is so important to me that we students always want to find out the final destination in our college life. Though maybe we will not walk through the path which we choose in this age, we still want to have a precise way to ourselves. It is hard, but it is necessary.